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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

ANNNDDDD,,,,......,,,,,, MAGGOT MILK!
HI EVERYONE*SHAKES COBWEBS OFF*

chinesey new year is coming. yes! it's tradition to clean up our sties of a pig.
so besides that i shall clean this blog too.
REFRESH!

so i was thinking this morning. bout being a crybaby, what schizophrenia is all about, all the way to what i think the term "clever" is percieved.

Firstly, a CRYBABY.
-------------am i a crybaby?

stop guessing! yes i am!! DUH DUH, DOUBLE-DUHH!!
it also explains why i decide to quit eating anything that walks or crawls
well. besides those that live in the sea.
you know why?
i WEEP after watching a video inside a slaughterhouse.
i am a major-weeper(oh Jude Law yess yess)

YET, i justify that moment by arguing that t'was guilt and shame that overwhelmed me. no?

i cry alot for guilt and shame. possibly anger too.
there were times i cry because i felt i had treated a great friend badly.

Strange, you may say.

Recently, i woke up crying from a dream.
i dreamt i was rejected by someone i truly respect because he/she was angry at me for always being wrong.

i had never once cried from a dream
vomited, yes.
but not cry.

i dont blame the person at all!
FYI =D i never will since i am always doing wrong

the hurt i felt was surreal.
even felt like de javu BUT of course that didnt really happen.

but the hurt.
i felt it before.
and you can bet a million gazillion dollars that i cried.
i cried for two whole hours as if my beloved just died.

the person who hurt me that bad possibly thought i was over-reacting.

yeah, whatever but forgive me for never being backstabbed repeatedly before.
FYI, the people around me other than "the one" are good-natured and truly enjoy your company.
yes, the person is now being referred to as "the one"

ever noticed how something happens and then this person blogs about it and it involves something bad about you but the person refuses to reveal that it is, in fact, you?

You'll know when it's about yourself.

i'm doing something similar to that but it's just to clear the thoughts in my mind.
nothing else, peace (:

SO, before "the one" started treating me like a complete enemy, she first spread nasty rumours about me, half-truths and whole un-truths.

while there i was, being confused and upset.
i had no clue what the bucket-load-of-shit was happening.

and then came text message.
kinda like a non-chalant warning message, saying i should not speak ill of "the one" and her newly-found friends.

i was like HUH?? what's going on??

so i cried. the next day when i saw her i felt this sharp pain.
the pain was an psychological version of the normally physical pain.
it DOES hurt, FYI.
it attacks the brain and the heart!!@
which are unfortunately the 2 most important organs in your body.

"the one" acted as if the message she sent the previous night had been the "closing" for this whole incident.

GUESS WHAT.

not for me!

So, in her blog she talks about how ppl make use of their innocence. and use the bible to threaten her. YES, you saw right, THREATEN.

probably crying to her is seen as "innocence" rather than, as the majority put it as well as Harvard and Oxford and wakashiz, the act of producing tears in the tear gland as a result of emotional stress or physical pain. or whatever. that is MY own definition.

Now, my reply to that message was
" FYI, i have not spoken ill of your friends, and i have absolutely no reason to. God knows, maybe you have spoken ill of others more than i did. Matthew 5:26"

is it right? Matthew 5:26? correct me if i'm wrong, but it says something like," Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God"

in which way is that threaten?
let's take a moment's rest to discuss it, and also draw a mindmap while we're at it.

hmmm... no rebuttals? anyone?

OH! we have an answer! let's read it out.
" if we do not have a heart with pure intentions, God will then fling on his invisibility cloak so we cant see him"

OMG. Loser. what kind of threat is that? NEXT!
probably if you say something like "I WILL WHIP OUT MY WANG AND SLAP YOU HARD THRICE ON THE FACE MWAHAHA@"

then i will think it is a threat.

also, "the one" carries on the entry by asking god-knows-who why he/she is still brooding over it. she carries on to say,' well nvm, i will forgive this person"

Excuse me, after i have been treated like an enemy, had rumours spread about me, and receive a possibly warning message with no reason whatso-ever, who should do the forgiving?

well you should know some of the many questions i had in mind was
"why is she doing this to me? i'm her bloody friend, not her fuckin enemy. WAS her friend"
"what have i done to make her behave this way?"
"is it because she had new friends and wanted to 'throw' me away after wasting me?"
"why, why, why"

I feel like a total pansy now.
HAH! if you do this any longer i will SUE you for harrassment!

DingDongDang,
stupid shmuck of a maggot muck

Disclaimer:
This post is purely copyrighted and fictional. Anybody who responds to this post is subjected to serious mental abnormalities in need of psychological treatment of either extreme paranoia or inability to seperate fiction from reality.
BUT
commends are definitely welcomed :D

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